i got this quote from JY's msn nicky

it says:

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it is what you are expected to give, which is everything.

and i feel that the biggest Love is ACCEPTANCE. which is very important. if you cant accept this person, how could you have loved him/her?

if you only love one for his/her looks, family background, how people sees him/her, education level. his/her popularity among people, etc.. do you think you really love him/her?

Love is not measured by conditions. Love should be unconditional. and thus ACCEPTANCE is very important.

when one says I Love You. jolly well make sure you really mean it! dont say it for the sake of saying.

im thankful cause acceptance runs in mr's heart.

at least someone i love care. rather than the friends i love even cared. -shakehead-

its been weeks....

my friendships.

friends dont say 'love you' to me when you dont even show you bother about me. coz i too feel its shit.

someone i feel that owes me an explanation even forgotten that she owed me one. and its someone important. can you imagine how disappointed i am? and.. ive since decided not to bother about her anymore.

i dont usually believe in the -friends come and go- kinda thing. but to think again, i think its true. after many occasions. ARgh. im just disappointed. but well. i aint gonna do anything about it. its either you do it. or lets ignore it. i believe your great at it from my past experiences. LOL.

she can talk to me as thou it had never happened. me, too can also ACT as thou i dont care. haha.

know, its the reaping and sowing thing. ive been freaking sowing in that friendship. ive too been reaping. been reaping shit yea? haha!

and... IM COOKING DINNER WITH SERENE TOMORROW!! call me THE CHEF JESSIE!

marketing and marketing. frying and frying. veggie and soups. all planned. good menu. haha!

im kinda looking forward to this week. coz im be going gym-ing and getting my event done up and projects deadline this week. how good? everything will be -wad wad lan jing-

mr's having exam on tueday!! studying and studying. GOD!! please please... if he forgets, in any circumstances make him remember! if he's tired drop as many cockroaches as you can so he wont sleep. if he thinks of me let him be thinking the missy moi holding on to all the notes for him to study!. all in all. im praying for his great results! PLEASE.. NO CONFINEMENT PLEASE!

offtobed-

I LOVE MY SWEETHEART SO MUCH!!!

just got home not too long ago. mr had his night out for a few short short hours. so i head over to boon lay to meet him. dinner together. ERM. more of like him looking at me enjoying dinner. we shared sliced fish soup and rice. hehe. i think i want and need to have sliced fish soup and rice everyday. haha! why? hehe. i bet my sweetest darling knows. hahas.

had CCA fair this afternoon. gotta know about this Chingay dance thingy. instructor was said to be the KPOP star RAIN's dance instructor. ive signed up for it anyway. hahas.

i took pictures with my sweetest!!



i was trying on this levis 593. i like it!!


took a few shots during our short short meet up.


Awww.. i love him!!


i love myself too!!


mr look fatherly hor? haha! anyway its baby glenn!

-yawn-

having a big cup of milk before bed feels really good when im in a low mood.

but hey, no worries. im fine.

went to the gym today. and..

my teacher asked: jessie... wanna join cross country?

me: HUH?!! cannot lar. i will faint and die there. -giggles-

she: aiya i dont expect you to win something also ma. just join lar. there will be many people there too. need not win anything. besides if you were to join, you'll get AL for SW lessons till march. its a good deal right!?!

me: WHAT? really need not attend SW lessons till march?!!! serious!!!

she: yeah. so.. join kae? got free jersey also leh. just run your pace can already. we need more girls lar.

me: huh? but i scared leh~-running the treadmill-

she: scared what? aiya theres many people there. you just run the pace you are running now can ALREADY lar.

me: HUH?~!!!!!!

she: taking pen and paper, wrote down my name and ask: jessie, whats your ic and mobile number?

me: oh. its 9........ S87....... and... IM IN!

please dont laugh. i cant run but at least i join in the race. DID YOU? hahas! maybe after running the cross country. i might do well for my napfa. haha!

events next week, presentation next week. and TPS progress test tomorrow. thank God its just two units. hahas.

im feeling quite......... now. dont know how should i put it. but.. well. just not feeling good lar..

its always like that. once after many months i would be in this mood for i dont know why. start to think and be stressed and ETC ETC. feel abit low of myself. know the feeling like "head facing down and walk" kind? i wonder its because of the upcoming events or anything. but im just not feeling right. im feeling quite sad too.

oh well.. mmm. i was in the canteen this afternoon and jean came calling me with her loud sharp voice: JESSIEEEEE!!!!!!!! darling~~

me: stand there. look at her.. spread my arms wide and walk to her slowly and HUG her. haha!

and monday saw me and said: she ah dont remember me already ah. walk off with a disappointed face. really wanna laugh at him. hahas.

theres CCA fair tomorrow~~~

i went vivo city today.

i saw a bag that cost $43. thats crazie. but i like! i saw a top and i dont remember the price. i like it too!! i saw the everlast shirt that i wanted and i love it too!! i saw that fox tank top and i so freaking love it. i saw a GAP shirt and i hope i can get it soon!!

to shop more also means to work more. and theres so many stuffs that i wanna get. but wanting and needing is different. haha. actually. i dont need all of that! haha!

the only thing i need is to get my braces done!!! the utmost important one! hee~

i was talking to WONG via sms and he said sweet moments needa spend wisely. thats so true. how wisely can i spend when ive got such little time? i wondered. haha!

i was thinking about siaosiaos. i really miss them very much. felt kinda sad that i couldnt keep up to our promise about having meetups every saturday with them. i miss the good old times. i miss our laughters the funs and chomp chomp supper and laughing out loud and going sentosa playing twister and the stayovers at ahsiao chinhwees place or joels and having BBQ or steamboat over at Marina bay, movies, chilling by the swimming pool playing eagles and hawk games. i miss our forfeits. and kboxing session and also swimming!! and video-camming!! and our all time favourite, taking pictures!! i really miss it all. I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH!! lets all head out after handsome's NZ trip yea?!! i love you all TOOOOO MUCH!! eventhough we've met lesser but please please dont let this precious friendship of ours fall apart kae! u are all so important to ME!!

imisssiaosiaoimisssiaosiaoimisssiaosiao!!!

iwannameetthemiwannameetthem!!

caught "last dance" and its a freaking PLEASE DO NOT WATCH kinda SHOW!

mr dozed off. and i got turned off. i was so excited. was like YEAH movie!! YES movie!! with MR! how good. how nice. everything was good, as in the company definitely. but the movie totally CMI. not my kind of movie. its all PANG PANG PANG die die die. and dont know what lar. i thought its gonna be one interesting show. and to my dismay. its so NOT.

brought mr to far east for chicken cutlet rice as promised. on MY treat. hahas. and next im hoping to bring mr to the chicken rice stall at level 2 and the prawn noodle and etc.

first attempt on potato salad wasnt very pleasing. hehe. according to the recipe given and proven after me obeying the instructions given shows that sometimes we should just be SMARTER to do things our way than to obey the instructions.

WHY?

the magazine i got the recipe from said to boil the potato for 20mins. and i did so. but the potato is still HARDENED. so...... mr had a hardened potato salad. i took about 1+hrs to prepare that lar. thou it didnt turned out as good as i wanted it to. but still im proud of myself. haha. know why?!! EH I KNOW HOW TO PREPARE POTATO SALAD LEH! YOU KNOW MEH!? hahahaha!

i got something else in mind that ive promised to prepare and has yet to prepare. im thinking of getting it but i dont know if i have the time to make this time round a better one. its never gonna be salad anymore. coz my dearest darling doesnt take COLD food! hahas. he dont take and he gave me -FACE- he ate a few of my potato cubes. haha! my bro said mine suck. hahas. oh well. WHAT can you EXPECT from a FIRST time SALAD maker? haha!

i asked my bro to try it. first reply: EDIBLE anot? -gave me a doubtful look- but still tried it lar. and gave loadsa negative comments. hahas! nevermind!! missy moi welcomes comments to help me improve. haha!

went shopping. mr bought me top and bottom. hehe! so nice of him!! and now mr back to OCS while im heading to school tomorrow! another week of school and ill meet mr again!!

i wondered if some of you cared about how i have been. but thanks to those who came and ask HOW ARE YOU thru msn. ive been really good. thou i lost my important module notes and im darn sad about that. life been alright. nothing terrible happened. but wonderful things happened. haha! one of the most wonderful thing is that i love him so much! hahaa!

oh yes. a french fries lover like me also promised to eat fries at least once a week. oh. im doing good huh. and and! i couldnt run four rounds without stopping in the past and now i could!! OH!!! im doing really good huh! hahas!!

i need to head to the gym in school!! who wants to go with missy moi?!!!!!?!?!!


my new top and bottom. hehe!

CNY's coming. i wanna get new clothes! one reason of my yearning for dad to fly home is that he could be my sponsor for my new clothings. haha! and besides that. i miss him lar. 365day minus away around 7days which is 280days. ive not seen him for that number of days! WOW!

and. when will i be able to head back my hip hop dance club huh?! that kinda CCA seemed like CCA-less kind please. HAI!

-imneedmybednow-

ive been hardworking today. i seriously am.

i went to school. wasnt late. went for Sports and Wellness lesson and headed home. on my way home. i did some shopping. lol. not shop for clothes lar. i went to buy my toiletries.

got home. i started doing housework. i think i -xin xue lai chao- did i use it correctly? im hoping that my chinese is getting better after hearing so much of the 4words 4 words chinese phrase from my bf. hahas. im in a really good mood. so i decided to do all the housework without waking my brother up.

i did the same old stuff. mopped each floor thrice. hahas. scrub bathroom walls. cleaned toilet bowl. packed room. did laundry. i did all lar. oh yes i got a new name. its sophira. haha! im sophira jess.

so to reward myself. making myself feeling HAPPIER. hehe guess what did i do????

well well. i bathed with green tea body scrub. and!!!! MISSY DID MASK! hahahahahahahaha! how good how good? im loving that yogurt peach mask from the face shop!! that prevents pimple too if im not wrong. AND not only did i do mask. i applied hand cream on my both hands. haha!! dont wanna be -ahma-. moisture moi hands.. lie on bed relax and come online to blog. and im gonna head for my favourite chicken rice dinner with my brother and his gf!!

all is doing really good. peace in the house of sophira jess. it feels really good to do masking and putting this and that cream pampering oneself. hahah! im feeling good.


can someone buy me more? hahas..


i love body shop's stuffssss!!

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HI WORLD!

i bet you must have been missing my entries right? LOL. pardon missy for my BHB-ness. coz I AM! wuahahahahaha!

ive not been blogging. not that ive been busy with bf stuffs. the fact is i dont know what to blog about. and im hoping to upload pictures together with my entry. so im just awaiting for a day where ive got pictures to share. and this is it. it THIS day! hahas.

ive been exercising. heading out. enjoying. staying over. bbq-ing. chalets. be with my precious mr somebody and his family. ilovehim!

went running with mr on sun. didnt wanted to run coz im tired and i want to sleep. but still i went to run. mr was quite pissed with me about cancelling the plan last min. im so sorry darling. it will not happen again. mr accompanied me throughout. hehe. the run from hougang to sengkang. WOW! haha one hour plus. oh. i did rest a little in the midst of my running process. all in all. it was a great run. and my thighs and arms are aching..i cant write properly. hahas.

the rest of the day before sun, i went chalet, bbqed and had fun!!! with many people!! they are: NELSON,CASON,NICHOLAS,JIARUI,KENGYONG,WILSON,JUNYONG,ESMOND and myself. LOL. quite a number of my good friends i gotta know during my nitec days over at ITE Simei. was there to celebrate nelson's 19th birthday.

earlier this afternoon i was sitting around my home and having little thoughts. hehe. i was thinking about the people who are so nice and sweet and love me. and i smiled to myself. and thinking that im indeed a blessed someone.

someone who made a bright spark in my life is mr's mom. telling me how much she went through really encouraged me to keep on keeping on no matter what. coz im much more better than someone else. be it in health or anything. i feel that i shouldnt complain so much about life. i should take it as a challenge. face it and learn from it. i feel that no matter how hard my life is, i should be thankful that im still healthy and living. and furthermore, mr's mom made me feel so loved. she gave me apples and ask me to eat well and pass me american ginseng to drink. im really very thankful to her. dont think like CHEY that only? it meant alot to me. so much.so so much.little things but meant alot.oh. and her birthday is approaching....hehe..

the next someone is mr's dad. hahas. dinner on him. great dinner. wonderful meal. after each meal i had with mr's family i felt more loved. i felt more blessed. and mr's dad droved me home yesterday. aint he so nice?

and my all so precious lovable sweetest dearest darling MR! thou im only able to meet him once a week. chat on the phone less than 20mins a day. the feeling of wanting to give him a tight hug is like a everyday thing. hes loving me more each day and missy moi feels the same too. im seriously thanking God everyday for him! oh yes. and telepathy works so well for us. LOL. cannot tell him how much i miss him.if so, he'll worry.. so ill just type here. IMISSHIMlikecrazie.

and mr's sis. i feel really good about her. remember when ive got my -ter kah-aka pig leg. she would ask if im better. didnt talk much to her. but im thankful that she cared for me in some little way. hehe!

January is a busy month for me. project deadlines. and my all so important event is coming out late jan. and having CA's during my mid jan. which is like so soon. and my worries are out again..........

remembered my last post i was saying about taking fancy into eating good food. yes i remember one of the good food i love like mad. its the LOBSTER. oh. its yummie yummie!!!!

oh yes. ive cleared one individual project assignment today!!!!! PRAISE THE LORD!!!! i did it like in an hour? haha!! and my Tourism project is done too!! ohhh how good? how good?hahas!

pictures.......










Nicholas and moi


NELSON!




Cason the sick child that day. with nelson






Jia Rui and moi


Keng Yong and moi


CASON!!






cam whoring cam whoring cam whoringggg...










kids. do not play with FIRE!!












me myself and I!












its Jun Yong and Jia Rui








i love this cake!!




























look how helpful i am in cutting cakes and distributing them. hahas.


oh yes. this is WILSON. not my brother. hahas










to say the truth, they are all homosexuals. hahas. JK


caught red handed.
















i think i look evil here.
























if you did catch Death Note. i guess you know who is Nic trying to act like. the only thing left out was an apple.






my swollen and ugly feet.










who's who?







the end! bye world!